I am an emotional eater.. I eat when I’m happy, when I’m sad, when I’m stressed, when I’m upset – you get the idea. The only time I don’t eat is when I’m grieving and I would prefer that not to be a part of my life just so I get over my unhealthy habits!!
As I am trying really hard to eat better and lose weight. I need to learn how to avoid the emotional eating nightmare of eating to ease my emotions, but then feeling absolutely wracked with guilt, that I beat myself up for hours to then quell my guilt once more with food because really by then, it’s in for a penny – in for a pound.
I have done some research into emotional eating and as straight forward as it all seems I don’t feel that for me the common suggestions of going for a walk, writing in a journal or distracting myself will work. It seems to trivialise how deep rooted emotional eating is.
Food for me is soothing. It is a joy and as yet I haven’t found anything that matches it. You may find this something you can relate to or something quite ridiculous – if it’s the latter then be grateful you are not trapped like so many people are.
Today at work I had a few stressful moments which would usually send me straight to the canteen for comfort food like a chip butty or the shop to buy sweet treats to reward myself for dealing with my job!
I mean it’s even called comfort food – and boy does it do it’s job.
So to stop me running to the nearest shop, I did something I have never done at work before. Instead of ordering a chip butty with a chocolate bar….
I ate a salad!
I know crazy right!! The thing is I had taken a soup for lunch and although I really wanted something to make me feel warm and fuzzy I just couldn’t do it. I knew that the feeling of guilt, regret and sadness would be ten times more after eating crappy food than the feeling of stress I was currently feeling.
I was mindful and I honestly believe it’s linked with the meditation I have been doing. I recognised my feelings – I still wanted to eat them but I’m sure recognising them is the first step!!
I know there will be days when the emotional eating takes over. I actually think it’s quite normal – I’m only human after all. The key is to not let it be anything more than that once in a while .
The problem is – I then have to learn how to forgive myself when I do completely lose it! But that’s a whole new blog post!!!